ka tasya and ka nita- new mood healer ♥ ♥

dear reader, hi and how are you?
I am totally fine :)

days passe and weeks gone with time. how's your day dear?
I'm having a lot of fun days with my ka tasya and ka nita. ever heard their name before?
well, actually I knew them just 5 months ago while I'm attending somekind of ceremonial things
then.... we're starting to spend time together.
they are totally kind! they're nice and friendly
they also my mood healer, they're my best after my parents

love you my katasya and kanita


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xoxo- bonita

12TH GRADE

officially 12th grader!!

preparing for KEDOKTERAN HEWAN IPB 2011

great liburan selesai saudara saudara. daan kembalilah saya ke sekolah. well
HELLO 12TH GRADER! haaaay those test and scrappy things!

wow. gue sama sekali nggak nyangka udah kelas 12. rasanya baru beberapa hari yang lalu melalui MOS, kenalan sama temen baru, masuk kelas 11 ipa 3 dan sekaraaaang saya kelas 12 yang siap kuliah tahun depan (amin)

target? KEDOKTERAN HEWAN IPB 2011. please dearest God help me to make this real.
sebenernya agak takut juga sih target ini gk tercapai . cumaaa, saya yakin dan percaya pasti bisa! amin.

I'll make my parents pround of me, and that's what I gonna do

preparing those test, is't that fun as it's sound. I'm totally stuck with books, books and books and (again) books. as fun as hell. thanks

even sebernya gue pengen kelas11 gue balik, namun apa daya? bangku kuliah menunggu, daaan.. gue mau TIDAK menyiayiakan itu. udah bosen juga gue di 38, udah capek berkutat di daerah jakarta, dan mari kita hijrah ke bogor yeeah!

so... see you when I see you :)
doain masuk KEDOKTERAN HEWAN IPB yaaa.


LOVEHONEYBABE,

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stuck

I'm stuck.

yeah I'm stuck. well, I prefer to call it stuck then suffering.
stuck with what? with whom? with whose? where? when?
I'm stuck with my activity. I'm exhausted!! oh please, I just want to go out for a while then refreshing my mind.
dear my Dad, I do like majoring in science, but since I found out that I'm a loser at physic, then I got stressed easily.
dear Mom, sorry for making you always mass up with my physic score. I do learn it wholeheartedly, I do, I always do. BUT? SEE? I'M GOOD AT BEING A LOSER.
Mom, sorry really sorry to say I never ever make you happy or proud because of me.
well, it's not a good failure through. but please mom, believe me once again
I still want to make you and dad proud of me.
I'll prove my self to be a vet.

and please God, let me make my parents proud of me

the art of envy

" do you ever feel like you're down with your own envies ? "

hay folks, howdy?

I’m doing good rite now.

Yeah, despite of some my deadline task, I had such a great time with my girls.

Especially with ama-nadya-ari my closest friend, and of course my 4 days roommates Deisy (skip the things about deisy-lol)

Just like other girls we like gossiping, and it’s very human I thought, even I know that it’s a big sin actually.

Back with gossiping it self, we’re mostly talking about other girls in our school. Yeah, sometimes about how many ex/exes they got, how nerd they are, how pretty some of them, and how luck they are to be absolutely listed as “gaul”.

Few days ago, when we’re gossiping about how could some of the “it” girls so pretty, even with or without make up (because they’re good about make up and totally into it)

Ama-nadya-ari and of course I, we’re talking about them. No hurt feeling at all, we just find out that gossiping is totally fun (lol)

But then I’ve just wondering why they could be like that?

They are so beautiful, pretty, charming and good at English. Oh my goodness, I envy them like crazy.

Have you ever feel like what I feel? Oh don’t be so naive dearest reader. E.N.V.Y is something which is really human (just like gossiping).

And I’m suddenly backed into silence as well.

When, my friend said that Ms. A is pretty, deep down in my heart, I want her (my friend) said that I’m pretty too. Yes, I’m absolutely envy. I do. So what?

Well, as time pass by I know that even envy is very human, I could minimize my envies.

I realized that envy is actually just a matter of mind, when our mind is full of negative things, and we’re started to counting the other fellow’s blessings instead of our own.

In case I ever (and often) being in this trouble-envying someone even just my brother- here they go my amateur envies solving problem.

Firstly, as I said before envy is something in common that you feel when you’re mind full of negative things. So, dear readers come out the boundaries and think positive!

Napoleon Hill once said, “no one can make you jealous, angry, vengeful, or greedy, unless you let him”

What are you waiting for? Let get your mind some positive things in common dear

Then, one thing you have to remember, NOBODY IS PERFECT!

Even the prettiest girl in the whole earth has her own limit. Well, sometimes instead of that kind of exterior, their life is not as easy as what we thought.

The prettiest girl in the world maybe ever being in her lowest point.

Or the smartest person in the whole universe ever being stuck with his formulas.

Dear reader, if you can take your eyes off others, and take the scanner within, you’ll find so many bad things happened even for the luckiest one.

Last but not least, you have to remember that everything is come at the rite time. Happiness, sadness, and all the great and worst things in your life are come at the rite time.

In my point of view, I thrust everything is come in reason, even when we’re not wise to see it-just like Oprah Winfrey said.

Dear readers, nowadays if you still keeping up your envies towards others you’ll ends up with no friends.

Once again darling, just believe in your self that your time will come!

For sure it will bring you double happiness!

bonita signout,

xoxo!

past

these are some of my sweet memories trough several months ago...
yeah, sometimes even memories still memories it still deserve some places in our heart
may the past be the sweetest thought in mind


bonita,

xoxo

wondering why ?

wondering why gue deket sama cowo yang lebih tua dari gue then I asked my friend.
so here they goes my friend's mind

deisy : mungkin lo itu kaya barang yang perlu dijaga ly. takut kenapa kenapa. soalnya kan lu kalo latah suka macem macem tuh, nah mungkin itu cowo merasa lo harus dirubah dan dilindungi kali.
-- dear deisy meskipun aku agak gk jelas dengan apa yang kamu maksud, tapi heeeeey, kamu itu ya! emang aku apaan deh latah macam macam -_-"

windy : kamu itu lucu kaya boneka ly, dan mereka itu mungkin gk punya boneka waktu kecil. jadi kamu dijadikan mainanan mereka deh hahahaa
--dearest my hunny bunny sweetie windy, heh yaampun aku udah seneng ya kamu bilang aku imut. eh ternyata ujungnya aku dikira mainan. I'm not boy's toy darlaaa -_-"

indah : hmm, kenapa ya? yah ulbon yang namanya jodoh emang ada yang tau? kalo lo emang deket sm cowo yang lebih tua terus? so what? biarin aja semua berjalan apa adanya
-- my lovely Indah I love you so muchoo ndah hhe

sisi : kamu itu terlalu immature sayaaang ku, jadi mungkin some of boys thinks that you deserve to be protected or something
-- greatest sisi, siy aku speechless nih hhehhee

meskipun some of my girls told me already about the reason, I'm still curious...


bonita signout,

xoxo

love and care

"I do love you or I do care for you - which one do you prefer?"

kalo boleh gue memilih antara sahabat sama pacar pasti gue milih sahabat.

iyakan? most girl thinks the same as mine.

wondering why? karena biasa nya temen itu lebih sayang sama gue dan mereka tau gue lebih dari gue tau diri gue sendiri.

kalo pacar? yaelah, dia baru kenal gue sekarang. I need my friend more.

wait ya, emangnya pacar itu gk sayang sm gue ya? apa sayang itu beda sama cinta?

I told you already, I'm an amateur with those love stuff.

masalahnya sayang dan cinta itu adalah kata kata yang sulit dideskripsikan dengan kata kata,

tapi kita bisa dengan jelas ngerasain nya (sok tau)

so here they goes the question :

apa bisa cinta dan sayang itu beda?

apa bisa cinta dan sayang itu ada di dua orang yang beda?

menurut gue sih:

sayang itu lebih kompleks dari sekedar cinta. sayang itu lebih berarti dari cinta.

well, lo bisa sayang sama orang tanpa harus cinta orang itu kan?

tapi cinta itu gak mungkin berarti tanpa sayang.

a love without care is just a lust.

am I rite?

bonita signout,

xoxo

PITY?

My friend is a very good person, she’s really pretty with indo-deutch ascent, and that’s why boys couldn’t stop buzzing their love near her. Ya, sometimes I feel like I want to be like her.

Boys come over her even she didn’t ask for it. Well, yeah I do jealous.

I feel like, Oh gee… I want to be pretty too!!!

But, anyway what-so-ever it is, I still the way I am. I’m pretty sure people love me because I’m ully! Am I mistaken?

But anyway, being single is not that bad too. I love being single.

Since bassist left me for unreasonable reason, I’m not ready yet to start a new one. Not yet I mean. It’s just too fast.

Then, other problem appeared. I’m still single, but then I’m falling with not-single-anymore boy.

Bitch? Third person? What else? Named it…

Well, prefer to call it the third person.

I hate being the third person in somebody’s love story. I want my own!

In my life, I’m the main character in the novel. The main character supposed to be the one who had the pretty bitch problem, but in the end I could solve it pretty good!

But now see? In my novel the main character is the one who supposed to be pity of.

Even I say I want my own love story, I couldn’t make it. Pity me? I don’t need your pity.

Well ya, may be it’s the time to help my self out from the love atmosphere, and search for other atmosphere.

Sometimes all you need is to take step outside, clear your head and remind yourself of whom you’re and where you wanna be.

So, darling lets take the moral story; if you’re broken hearted, all you need is not something new, but someone new.

If you couldn’t find someone new, please don’t be the third person in other people relationship, or you’ve got is just people's pity.

bonita signout, xoxo

Blaming the time

“Happiness, pain, hurt, with those love stuff … everyone has change to take each position at sometime”

“Why I love a person who not supposed to be loved?”

I was a bit surprise when my friend sends me a message like that.

No thunder, no rain, no fire, no smoke. Suddenly she text me like that.

I don’t know what I supposed to say, just wondering what’s going on with my friend, and then I read my Sunday Jakarta Post again.

About a hour latter my friend text me again

“Am I a sinner if I fall in love with an in-relationship boy?”

Oh my God, oh gee… Now I’m totally panic and if you could see my face-it was turn into red and blushing because I feel like, it’s just like what I feel!

Now I stop reading my Jakarta Post and while thinking about the answer I call my friend.

I asked her what’s going on.

Well, as you all can guess, she’s in love with a wrong guy.And she was burst into tears as well.

It’s normal I ought. Yeah, when you’re hurt and try to forget how the pain feels. You begin it with tears and it’s ended with smile on your face (I wish)

Then as soon as she calm down, she’s telling me all the things. Honestly, I just say “hmm, yes, hmm, then. Oh I see… then” no hurt feeling my dear. Because I know sometimes when somebody’s crying they don’t need your quotes, they just need that you’re notice what they feel.

Well, in this case, none of them (my friend and the in-relationship boy) are wrong.

I can’t blame my friend. But I also can’t blame on the in-relation boy, who seems like giving her much expectancy. The thing I could blame is TIME.

I guess, it’s only about timing it self.

Because love is something we can not create. It’s like an energy which we can’t predict when it comes. It also can not be created by human being and can not destroy by man.

“I trapped in” she said. Then burst into tears again.

“Well yeah you do darl. But try to make your care feeling to him as little as possible on an everyday basis, rather just spending bunch of time thinking about someone who never realize you care to him, or even he never thinking about you”

“aaaa ulbon, I’m an amateur and so immature, it’s too late to change it”

“a a a, no no no. maybe you’re amateur with those love stuff, but wait ya you’re no longer immature. Well, I prefer to call it being young at heart. Because Mature never comes too late”

Dear readers, do you get what my point about?

Love is something sweet and I’m pretty sure you all ever in love with something, somebody, yeah what-so-ever is that

Love can in every time, you’ll never imagine. Love trapped you, and their love buzzing will never leave you, and you’ll get hypnotized!

Ironically, there’s always a balance to this game. There are yin and yang, there are performer and audience, there are liars and victims, and there are always happiness and pain-hurt in love stuff. Everyone has change to take up each position at sometime.

Don’t blame it on your self, take it easy. This time if you just feel like my friend feels…

You’re VISTIMS. Who is the executant?

Let’s go and BLAME ON THE TIME!!!!!

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xoxo

A and B

A : udah cari aja yang lain, gue gak bakal bisa sama lo gimana pun cerita untuk saat ini. Paling 3 tahun lagi, mau? 3 tahun itu waktu yang lama loh!

B : ah, nggak mau ah

A : oh come on, ayolah jangan bikin gue gk enak hati gini

B : bodo

A : ah kenapa sih, ayodong. Jangan gitu ah.

B : BODO, bodo bodo..

A : B, dengerin doong. I can’t make this right in our way. Please

B : kenapa sih, kan gue yang mau nungguin kenapa lo yang repot? Urusan gue dong mau nungguin lo. Kan gue ini yang nungguin bukan lo juga kan? So what?

A : *speechless*

B : heh, jangan diem dong. Atau sekarang lagi berkaca kaca nih?

A : kampret lu, gue udah speechless gk bisa ngomong apa apa, masih dibecandain lagi. How could you make me burst into tears and feel guilty like this?

B : hahhahhahaaaa, biarin aja deh. Kan gue yang sayang sama lo. Urusan lo sayang sama gue atau ngga sih bodo amat. Iya kan?

A : *speechless lagi*

Imagine if you’re A and your girlfie or boyfie is B. what do you feel?

Emang sih kesannya itu Cuma conversation biasa yang pasti semua orang juga bisa ngomong kaya gitu, yakan?

Tapi buat si A… astaga itu membuat dia speechless berulang ulang.

Aduh kenapa sih A jadi orang naïve banget, yakan?

Ah terlalu naïve, ssampai sampai tidak dapat membedakan mana kenyataan dan dunia khayal.

Sekarang gue mikir, apa iya ada orang yang bener bener mau sayang sama orang lain, tanpa mau tau persaaan orang itu gimana?

I mean pokoknya kalo dia sayang ya sayang, sabodo teing sama orang lain..

Ada gk ya? Impossible deh kayanya

(Burst into tears as well)

tadinya A percaya kalo emang ada orang yang kaya gitu, TAPI ternyata orang itu ya Cuma ngomong doang ternyata.

As time pass by, ternyata si B gk sanggup nungguin.

Iyalah, siapa juga yang sanggup nungguin 3 tahun? Gila apa itu manusia?

Oke kali ini gue berani bertaruh kalo yang lagi baca pasti nyalahin A, iyakan?

Well, so do I

Dasar si A, bego banget sih. Udah dikasih hati minta kentucky hhaha

Dikasih yang baik, eh minta lebih. Emang itu si A dodol

”dear A, 3 years is such a long time. If he goes away, it’s all because of your fault. Not him!”

In brief dear A, you shouldn’t feel guilty right now, because you’re already proven guilty

PS: could you guess, who is A?

Do you Believe in True Love ?

“Because when you love someone until its pain, there no more pain, just more love”

It was late nite when a friend of mine suddenly calls me. Somewhere between insomnia, typical restless of modern citizen and bothered by the sound of my brother euphoria at banging his drums unnecessary at 1 bloody and cloudy am.

Her voice so heavy seems like she’s been crying for so long.

I don’t say any word to her.

But I know exactly what’s going on with her, I swear with my self in the name of my red jimmy choo, if this happened because of her boyfriend (which is also my buddy) I’ll get and punch him rite in his face.

And as what I thought, she was crying for so long because she was just broke up with her boyfriend.

Yes, it’s happened about a month ago. But a week later after the late-nite-bloody-caller, she calls me again, and now her voice seems so happy. You know what’s going on?

Well, SHE BACK IN LOVE WITH HER BOY AND NOW THEY ALREADY COUPLE AGAIN.

Yes, it’s a way back into love

I’ve found so many people with this kind of CLBK things.

They broke up and then bring me surprising news that they’re a couple (again).

When I we had a reunion and telling our stories, a friend of mine told her story just as same as my friend before. She broke up then get back again just a week after she broke up. She said that, both of them (she and her boyfriend) found out that they’re inseparable- yes; they stick for each other whatever they do.

My friend- just call her Geogrey suddenly said,

“Why you need to be broke up then back again, to find out that you’re both inseparable?”

Well, I do think like what geogrey said. While my other friend having some chit-chat, I use my brain hardly and try to find out the answer. After a few hours of thinking and brain storming just like a professor, then I tell Geogrey my opinion.

“Geogrey, I do think like what you said before. But then, I realize within the heart for whom you love is the happiest place where you could return to. Even two different river have their own way they gonna meet in the sea someday. No matter how long you broke up or how long you in the long-distance relationship, if you both really love each other, you’ll stick with each other”

I believe in true love and soulmate. I believe that starstrukk problem and all of its stuff is in God hand.

Maybe, you think that I’m to naïve to believe such that soulmate stuff. But hey ya, wait I got the true story of true love.

My mom and dad, for example. My mom meets my daddy when she worked as a nurse in one hospital in Jakarta. And she meet him, my daddy was the mad patient she ever seen before.

But, my mom marrying my dad when he already had the handicapped.

My mom is the nurse who take care of my father after he had the operation surgery.

When I know this story, I was just like OH MY GOD, how mighty are You dear God.

How could my mom marrying someone with handicapped?

If I were her, I think one hundred times before.

I don’t know what’s going on with my mom brain, but she’s so good to be true as a girlfriend in those past days and as a wife right now.

No, I’m not ashamed with my father condition. Instead of being ashamed, I’m proud to be his daughter.

Well, I just want to share you my story.

Maybe for those people who doesn’t believe in true love, gonna change their mind rite after read this.

In brief, true love is does exist. You just have to believe in your heart, thrust in your self and love your boyfriend or girlfriend rite now wholeheartedly. Even you’re hurt because of your couple; just love them if you still care for them. Because Mother Theresa once said, “when you love someone until its pain there no more pain, just more love”

letter to God

Dear God,

God, just if I could choose my father before I was born, I choose normal father for me.

God, if I could choose my own family before I was born, I choose to be a princess in the Royal Family

God, if I could ask you to be born not in 3 July 1993, I rather choose to born in other year.

God, If I could choose my own destiny, I want to be a success doctor with a big and happy family of mine

God, If I could choose my own nationality, I want to be a English people, not Indonesian

God, If I could choose my own house. I want live in the big palace with a lot of servant

God, If I could ask you to make me pretty. I want supermodel body with beautiful face

God, If I could choose my boyfriend, I want a good boy, with a super brain, a handsome face and tall.

God, If I could be as smart as Einstein, I would thank you a lot.

But, dear God, I know that You are so good to me.

You give me more than what I need. You give me more than what I asked. You give me whatever I need. You know which good and bad for me. For those things, I thank you dearest God…

I thank you, for every little thing You’ve given to me

Thanks for giving me a family like mine.

Thanks for giving me a father with handicapped, so I’ll feel more empathy to handicapped person whom only have one hand, one leg etc.

Thanks for giving me a super father, even He’s handicapped with only one hand, he still work as usual and drive me where ever I need.

Thanks for giving me a father whom worked as a journalist, so he could teach me how to write something perfectly

Thanks for giving me a father with super self-confident, so I could say to my friend, “my father is there, someone with only one hand. he ever worked with a lot of Indonesian public figure in politic, and I’m proud to be her daughter”

Thanks for giving me a lot of person who loves me a lot

Thanks for giving me a brain like mine, so I know how it feels to be normal

Thanks for giving me Indonesian nationality, so I could say to the world, “hey, Batik is from Indonesia. Wayang is from Indonesia. Ulos is also from Indonesia. Indonesia is a diversity country”

Thanks for giving me little house with a big love inside

Thanks for giving me a body and face like mine, so I proud to say “I’m Indonesian, I love my tan skin. I know you envy me dear Mongolian and Caucasian outside there”

Thanks for giving me more boy-friend and bestiest with a great love for me.

Thanks for giving me my first, bassist, and my mood healer. So I know how it feels to be hurt, and I learn to heal the pain.

Thanks for giving me everything I need

Oh God, I couldn’t count your love for me. I couldn’t remember all of Your gift in my live

Dear God, I fully thanks to for giving me more love each day and also from people around me.

Please lead me still in Your way, so I’m not gonna fall down.

Please give me direction in Your way, so I’m not gonna be in the wrong way

Please give me a pure heart so I could help people.

Please hold my hand and teach me how to learn to the rope to catch my dreams

Because, I’m nothing without you by my side.

awful heart

my mood today : B.A.D

I don't know why but it feel like my heart is about to explode!
oh gee, I feel nothing but an awful mod.
I hope somebody could heal my mood ASAP
please, I need my mood healer effin crazy...

when your eyes speaking

"truth from your eyes"

It was the day when I woke up late to school and my eyes was so SLANTED that day.

Okay, obey the fact that my eyes are already slanted.

No, I’m not Chinese, I’m totally bataknese.

And I don’t know how come I have such this slanted eyes.

Back then. I say hello to my chair mate without any expression at once, because I was so sleepy that day.

You know what she said? She said, “ly, are you mad at me? Am I doing something wrong to you? Why your eyes seems so hate me?”

Oh my Goddess, what’s going on with my eyes and the way I look people?

Am I looking like wanna bite you darlaaa? LOL-ing

Other day, I had a meeting with my friends and juniors. I said nothing because I tried to be a good listener. But you know what my juniors said to me? “Ka ully, your eyes seems like so sharp. The way you look at us, is like a lion seeking for a prey”

WHAT? Oh my dear juniors, I don’t know what’s going on with my eyes…

I wish I could change this eyes.

Oh ya! Remembered about Heart-breaker-boy, he ever said something about my eyes.

He said, I look so attractive because of my eyes. OH MY GOD, it’s like hearing the light strike in the rain! I don’t know it’s just a “lips service” or a true fact- I do astonishing.

Well, actually I’m a friendly person, humble, love to mingle with people and it’s really poles apart with the entire stereotype that people once judge me.

WHAT-SO-EVER people talking about my eyes, I and “the looking for prey eyes” are inseparable. Yes that’s me.

My uncle is a photographer, and his best object is people eyes. You know why?

He said, “Idle hands can became the tool of the devil, the mouth can utter lies, lips sometimes hide a poisoned kiss and the body can ache from extra weight and years but the eyes will always tell the truth”

Yes, your eyes are the most honest part of your body.

You can’t hide your sad eyes after cry. You can’t cover your smize eyes when you hate someone. You can’t emphasize your dynamic happy eyes when you’re in love.

Well, one last word from me honey…

If you want to find someone lie or no, look them in their eyes.

Because, eyes will always tell you the truth.

honeylovebabe signout,

bonita xoxo

other dimension between friends and lovers

"which one do you prefer? friends or lovers?"

Heya folks! How are you dude? *high five*

Me? Hmm, so-so. I had such a hard time at school with those task and teacher. But still, I love school (minus tasks and teachers) LOL-ing.

Yeps, school weeks has back and it takes my time a LOT. My head so full and I do STRESS.

Anyway, talking about school I remember my school mates which I miss them effin crazy during the final exam holiday. We’re making such a good time together by sharing our problem and off course LOVE LIFE!

Well, love life is also a part of teenager life isn’t it? LOL-ing

First, we’re talking about Ms. N love life which is going not really well.

Actually she’s a good girl and also her boy. BUT, both of them are emotional person. In brief they’re actually love each other, they care for each other and THEY STICK WITH EACH OTHER-whether Ms. N said that she hate her boy sometimes, she still stick with him.

Then, my other friend sharing about her love life. In this case, we had the same problem. We’re in love with someone who is already with other girl. And however I try to forget the pain and feeling it still hard to erase the pain.

We’re still in contact with that boy and we’re a good friend rite now. One thing for sure, we’re tried to hide and obey that feeling rigorously.

So then, my friend asks me a question,

“ulbon, which one do you prefer, between boyfriend and bestiest?”

Then I replied, “darlaa, it such hard problem to choose between boyfriend and bestiest. But in my opinion a good boyfriend is someone who could be you bestiest, and a good bestiest is someone who could be your boyfriend.”

I don’t know why I decide to say those words, but I just think that whoever you choose between boyfriend or bestiest you’ll still need them both.

And the only way to solve that problem is to make both BESTIEST AND BOYFRIEND in one packet. That’s it. End of conversation.

What do you think?

Yeah, that’s just my opinion. If you had any opinion, go ahead share it with me dear *smile*

But then, we found another problem.

HOW, IT COMES IF WE’RE IN LOVE WITH OUR FRIEND?

Here they go my amateur-solving-problem:

“Friend is friend. Love is love. Even you can’t live without both of them. You have to choose one, darling. But one thing you have to remember, friends can be lovers but lover can’t be friends. A lovers who being your friends, they seems promising at once but after a time pass by the just fade away.”

Somewhere between friends and love there is other dimension named spouse. Yes, if you are dare to choose your spouse in next 10-15 years later, you definitely have both FRIEND AND LOVERS-2 in1- in one person.

So? Which one do you prefer? Friends? Or lovers? You decide honey! I believe you can choose one of them perfectly!

Live your love life honey, cheers and warm hugs from me to you!

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bonita

Not Okay

"HEART-BREAKER-BOY"

Okay, before I go too far. I bring you some best offer.

Much more better if you go away and try to read something else in my blog.

Because, what you’re gonna read in the next paragraph is just my madness and sorrow.

Ah shit, I WANT TO SPIT ON HIS FACE!

(breath in- breath out)

well, you still wanna read? Ah whatever

Yesterday, I’m totally mad! I do totally speechless! Oh God damn, how could I believe in such a kind of PLAYBOY? Oh gee, I’m stupid, so stupid, too naïve, too immature and once again I’m too dumb!

How do I depend and respect in him? Okay, I know he’s not my boyfriend. But, he act like, so care to me! Act like a guardian angle, but actually he’s nothing but a SHIT! Ah bullshit with all of your sweet words, bullshit of things that you do for me. This time, you tear me up again. Gee, I want to cry. Aaaaaaaaaaaa….

How many times you got me in this situation? More than 3^rd times dude!

I do wanna hate you, I do wanna punch you, I do wanna spit right in your face!

But, I can’t because you’re nobody to me. You’re just my friend.

Ah dear, he talk to somebody else and totally ignore me! He doesn’t ask me, about how I get home, about my condition! And it’s because you already with other?

I don’t need you to take me home-because my brother is pick me up. I don’t need you to hold my hand or something-because we’re friend rite?

Heloooo, if you’re truly my friend instead of ever-being-crush with me, at least you call my name and asking my condition!

Did you? oh ya, I know that you’re too busy because you’re trying to make her smile and laugh anytime as much as possible! You’re too busy to send messages to her, in fact she’s just 1 meter far from you. What a shit!

Just prepared if you read my blog dear my FRENEMIES and my ever-being-crush, I do wanna vomit in front off your face. I’m sick of wasting time of thinking about you! I’m sick of being tired! And I’m sick about the SWEET CARENESS you’ve done! Call me too serious, but who cares? I don’t care about you anymore!

GO away, and get far from my face. Thanks and bye.

once again, dear my heat-breaker-boy if you're about to find a new prey do it when you don't have any relationship status with other girl, or do it with ONLY ONE GIRL! don't you dare to make other girl feel so special.

best offered you repent ASAP.

honeylovebabe signout,

Bonita