WELCOME SEPTEMBER

hay fellas, howdy?
doing fine? I do. how's your day? your week and your moths going? (too many question-lol)

WELCOME SEPTEMBER!! (ersten achten zweihundretundzhen) bye dearest August!
so, today is the first day of SEPTEMBER.
some says september means happiness. But, I don't even feel the atmosphere of happiness round here :'(
well, what ever it is I really wish the best for my NEW SEPTEMBER

talking about new moth, I really hope A NEW LOVE come and stop by me hhe
I've been single for more than a year and I kinda miss those feeling.
you know, thinking about someone when you're about to sleep. and off course someone's midnight call
whose waking you up for so-not-important-things-like- I -LOVE-YOU hha
but yesssss, I miss those feeling.

dear cupid, please let your love arrow stab into my heart


honeylovebabe, signout


XOXO, bonita

12TH GRADE

officially 12th grader!!

preparing for KEDOKTERAN HEWAN IPB 2011

great liburan selesai saudara saudara. daan kembalilah saya ke sekolah. well
HELLO 12TH GRADER! haaaay those test and scrappy things!

wow. gue sama sekali nggak nyangka udah kelas 12. rasanya baru beberapa hari yang lalu melalui MOS, kenalan sama temen baru, masuk kelas 11 ipa 3 dan sekaraaaang saya kelas 12 yang siap kuliah tahun depan (amin)

target? KEDOKTERAN HEWAN IPB 2011. please dearest God help me to make this real.
sebenernya agak takut juga sih target ini gk tercapai . cumaaa, saya yakin dan percaya pasti bisa! amin.

I'll make my parents pround of me, and that's what I gonna do

preparing those test, is't that fun as it's sound. I'm totally stuck with books, books and books and (again) books. as fun as hell. thanks

even sebernya gue pengen kelas11 gue balik, namun apa daya? bangku kuliah menunggu, daaan.. gue mau TIDAK menyiayiakan itu. udah bosen juga gue di 38, udah capek berkutat di daerah jakarta, dan mari kita hijrah ke bogor yeeah!

so... see you when I see you :)
doain masuk KEDOKTERAN HEWAN IPB yaaa.


LOVEHONEYBABE,

bonita signout!

stuck

I'm stuck.

yeah I'm stuck. well, I prefer to call it stuck then suffering.
stuck with what? with whom? with whose? where? when?
I'm stuck with my activity. I'm exhausted!! oh please, I just want to go out for a while then refreshing my mind.
dear my Dad, I do like majoring in science, but since I found out that I'm a loser at physic, then I got stressed easily.
dear Mom, sorry for making you always mass up with my physic score. I do learn it wholeheartedly, I do, I always do. BUT? SEE? I'M GOOD AT BEING A LOSER.
Mom, sorry really sorry to say I never ever make you happy or proud because of me.
well, it's not a good failure through. but please mom, believe me once again
I still want to make you and dad proud of me.
I'll prove my self to be a vet.

and please God, let me make my parents proud of me

the art of envy

" do you ever feel like you're down with your own envies ? "

hay folks, howdy?

I’m doing good rite now.

Yeah, despite of some my deadline task, I had such a great time with my girls.

Especially with ama-nadya-ari my closest friend, and of course my 4 days roommates Deisy (skip the things about deisy-lol)

Just like other girls we like gossiping, and it’s very human I thought, even I know that it’s a big sin actually.

Back with gossiping it self, we’re mostly talking about other girls in our school. Yeah, sometimes about how many ex/exes they got, how nerd they are, how pretty some of them, and how luck they are to be absolutely listed as “gaul”.

Few days ago, when we’re gossiping about how could some of the “it” girls so pretty, even with or without make up (because they’re good about make up and totally into it)

Ama-nadya-ari and of course I, we’re talking about them. No hurt feeling at all, we just find out that gossiping is totally fun (lol)

But then I’ve just wondering why they could be like that?

They are so beautiful, pretty, charming and good at English. Oh my goodness, I envy them like crazy.

Have you ever feel like what I feel? Oh don’t be so naive dearest reader. E.N.V.Y is something which is really human (just like gossiping).

And I’m suddenly backed into silence as well.

When, my friend said that Ms. A is pretty, deep down in my heart, I want her (my friend) said that I’m pretty too. Yes, I’m absolutely envy. I do. So what?

Well, as time pass by I know that even envy is very human, I could minimize my envies.

I realized that envy is actually just a matter of mind, when our mind is full of negative things, and we’re started to counting the other fellow’s blessings instead of our own.

In case I ever (and often) being in this trouble-envying someone even just my brother- here they go my amateur envies solving problem.

Firstly, as I said before envy is something in common that you feel when you’re mind full of negative things. So, dear readers come out the boundaries and think positive!

Napoleon Hill once said, “no one can make you jealous, angry, vengeful, or greedy, unless you let him”

What are you waiting for? Let get your mind some positive things in common dear

Then, one thing you have to remember, NOBODY IS PERFECT!

Even the prettiest girl in the whole earth has her own limit. Well, sometimes instead of that kind of exterior, their life is not as easy as what we thought.

The prettiest girl in the world maybe ever being in her lowest point.

Or the smartest person in the whole universe ever being stuck with his formulas.

Dear reader, if you can take your eyes off others, and take the scanner within, you’ll find so many bad things happened even for the luckiest one.

Last but not least, you have to remember that everything is come at the rite time. Happiness, sadness, and all the great and worst things in your life are come at the rite time.

In my point of view, I thrust everything is come in reason, even when we’re not wise to see it-just like Oprah Winfrey said.

Dear readers, nowadays if you still keeping up your envies towards others you’ll ends up with no friends.

Once again darling, just believe in your self that your time will come!

For sure it will bring you double happiness!

bonita signout,

xoxo!

Quotes

" I'm not your toy darling, so watch out and stop playing with my heart"

love and care

"I do love you or I do care for you - which one do you prefer?"

kalo boleh gue memilih antara sahabat sama pacar pasti gue milih sahabat.

iyakan? most girl thinks the same as mine.

wondering why? karena biasa nya temen itu lebih sayang sama gue dan mereka tau gue lebih dari gue tau diri gue sendiri.

kalo pacar? yaelah, dia baru kenal gue sekarang. I need my friend more.

wait ya, emangnya pacar itu gk sayang sm gue ya? apa sayang itu beda sama cinta?

I told you already, I'm an amateur with those love stuff.

masalahnya sayang dan cinta itu adalah kata kata yang sulit dideskripsikan dengan kata kata,

tapi kita bisa dengan jelas ngerasain nya (sok tau)

so here they goes the question :

apa bisa cinta dan sayang itu beda?

apa bisa cinta dan sayang itu ada di dua orang yang beda?

menurut gue sih:

sayang itu lebih kompleks dari sekedar cinta. sayang itu lebih berarti dari cinta.

well, lo bisa sayang sama orang tanpa harus cinta orang itu kan?

tapi cinta itu gak mungkin berarti tanpa sayang.

a love without care is just a lust.

am I rite?

bonita signout,

xoxo

A and B

A : udah cari aja yang lain, gue gak bakal bisa sama lo gimana pun cerita untuk saat ini. Paling 3 tahun lagi, mau? 3 tahun itu waktu yang lama loh!

B : ah, nggak mau ah

A : oh come on, ayolah jangan bikin gue gk enak hati gini

B : bodo

A : ah kenapa sih, ayodong. Jangan gitu ah.

B : BODO, bodo bodo..

A : B, dengerin doong. I can’t make this right in our way. Please

B : kenapa sih, kan gue yang mau nungguin kenapa lo yang repot? Urusan gue dong mau nungguin lo. Kan gue ini yang nungguin bukan lo juga kan? So what?

A : *speechless*

B : heh, jangan diem dong. Atau sekarang lagi berkaca kaca nih?

A : kampret lu, gue udah speechless gk bisa ngomong apa apa, masih dibecandain lagi. How could you make me burst into tears and feel guilty like this?

B : hahhahhahaaaa, biarin aja deh. Kan gue yang sayang sama lo. Urusan lo sayang sama gue atau ngga sih bodo amat. Iya kan?

A : *speechless lagi*

Imagine if you’re A and your girlfie or boyfie is B. what do you feel?

Emang sih kesannya itu Cuma conversation biasa yang pasti semua orang juga bisa ngomong kaya gitu, yakan?

Tapi buat si A… astaga itu membuat dia speechless berulang ulang.

Aduh kenapa sih A jadi orang naïve banget, yakan?

Ah terlalu naïve, ssampai sampai tidak dapat membedakan mana kenyataan dan dunia khayal.

Sekarang gue mikir, apa iya ada orang yang bener bener mau sayang sama orang lain, tanpa mau tau persaaan orang itu gimana?

I mean pokoknya kalo dia sayang ya sayang, sabodo teing sama orang lain..

Ada gk ya? Impossible deh kayanya

(Burst into tears as well)

tadinya A percaya kalo emang ada orang yang kaya gitu, TAPI ternyata orang itu ya Cuma ngomong doang ternyata.

As time pass by, ternyata si B gk sanggup nungguin.

Iyalah, siapa juga yang sanggup nungguin 3 tahun? Gila apa itu manusia?

Oke kali ini gue berani bertaruh kalo yang lagi baca pasti nyalahin A, iyakan?

Well, so do I

Dasar si A, bego banget sih. Udah dikasih hati minta kentucky hhaha

Dikasih yang baik, eh minta lebih. Emang itu si A dodol

”dear A, 3 years is such a long time. If he goes away, it’s all because of your fault. Not him!”

In brief dear A, you shouldn’t feel guilty right now, because you’re already proven guilty

PS: could you guess, who is A?

Do you Believe in True Love ?

“Because when you love someone until its pain, there no more pain, just more love”

It was late nite when a friend of mine suddenly calls me. Somewhere between insomnia, typical restless of modern citizen and bothered by the sound of my brother euphoria at banging his drums unnecessary at 1 bloody and cloudy am.

Her voice so heavy seems like she’s been crying for so long.

I don’t say any word to her.

But I know exactly what’s going on with her, I swear with my self in the name of my red jimmy choo, if this happened because of her boyfriend (which is also my buddy) I’ll get and punch him rite in his face.

And as what I thought, she was crying for so long because she was just broke up with her boyfriend.

Yes, it’s happened about a month ago. But a week later after the late-nite-bloody-caller, she calls me again, and now her voice seems so happy. You know what’s going on?

Well, SHE BACK IN LOVE WITH HER BOY AND NOW THEY ALREADY COUPLE AGAIN.

Yes, it’s a way back into love

I’ve found so many people with this kind of CLBK things.

They broke up and then bring me surprising news that they’re a couple (again).

When I we had a reunion and telling our stories, a friend of mine told her story just as same as my friend before. She broke up then get back again just a week after she broke up. She said that, both of them (she and her boyfriend) found out that they’re inseparable- yes; they stick for each other whatever they do.

My friend- just call her Geogrey suddenly said,

“Why you need to be broke up then back again, to find out that you’re both inseparable?”

Well, I do think like what geogrey said. While my other friend having some chit-chat, I use my brain hardly and try to find out the answer. After a few hours of thinking and brain storming just like a professor, then I tell Geogrey my opinion.

“Geogrey, I do think like what you said before. But then, I realize within the heart for whom you love is the happiest place where you could return to. Even two different river have their own way they gonna meet in the sea someday. No matter how long you broke up or how long you in the long-distance relationship, if you both really love each other, you’ll stick with each other”

I believe in true love and soulmate. I believe that starstrukk problem and all of its stuff is in God hand.

Maybe, you think that I’m to naïve to believe such that soulmate stuff. But hey ya, wait I got the true story of true love.

My mom and dad, for example. My mom meets my daddy when she worked as a nurse in one hospital in Jakarta. And she meet him, my daddy was the mad patient she ever seen before.

But, my mom marrying my dad when he already had the handicapped.

My mom is the nurse who take care of my father after he had the operation surgery.

When I know this story, I was just like OH MY GOD, how mighty are You dear God.

How could my mom marrying someone with handicapped?

If I were her, I think one hundred times before.

I don’t know what’s going on with my mom brain, but she’s so good to be true as a girlfriend in those past days and as a wife right now.

No, I’m not ashamed with my father condition. Instead of being ashamed, I’m proud to be his daughter.

Well, I just want to share you my story.

Maybe for those people who doesn’t believe in true love, gonna change their mind rite after read this.

In brief, true love is does exist. You just have to believe in your heart, thrust in your self and love your boyfriend or girlfriend rite now wholeheartedly. Even you’re hurt because of your couple; just love them if you still care for them. Because Mother Theresa once said, “when you love someone until its pain there no more pain, just more love”

letter to God

Dear God,

God, just if I could choose my father before I was born, I choose normal father for me.

God, if I could choose my own family before I was born, I choose to be a princess in the Royal Family

God, if I could ask you to be born not in 3 July 1993, I rather choose to born in other year.

God, If I could choose my own destiny, I want to be a success doctor with a big and happy family of mine

God, If I could choose my own nationality, I want to be a English people, not Indonesian

God, If I could choose my own house. I want live in the big palace with a lot of servant

God, If I could ask you to make me pretty. I want supermodel body with beautiful face

God, If I could choose my boyfriend, I want a good boy, with a super brain, a handsome face and tall.

God, If I could be as smart as Einstein, I would thank you a lot.

But, dear God, I know that You are so good to me.

You give me more than what I need. You give me more than what I asked. You give me whatever I need. You know which good and bad for me. For those things, I thank you dearest God…

I thank you, for every little thing You’ve given to me

Thanks for giving me a family like mine.

Thanks for giving me a father with handicapped, so I’ll feel more empathy to handicapped person whom only have one hand, one leg etc.

Thanks for giving me a super father, even He’s handicapped with only one hand, he still work as usual and drive me where ever I need.

Thanks for giving me a father whom worked as a journalist, so he could teach me how to write something perfectly

Thanks for giving me a father with super self-confident, so I could say to my friend, “my father is there, someone with only one hand. he ever worked with a lot of Indonesian public figure in politic, and I’m proud to be her daughter”

Thanks for giving me a lot of person who loves me a lot

Thanks for giving me a brain like mine, so I know how it feels to be normal

Thanks for giving me Indonesian nationality, so I could say to the world, “hey, Batik is from Indonesia. Wayang is from Indonesia. Ulos is also from Indonesia. Indonesia is a diversity country”

Thanks for giving me little house with a big love inside

Thanks for giving me a body and face like mine, so I proud to say “I’m Indonesian, I love my tan skin. I know you envy me dear Mongolian and Caucasian outside there”

Thanks for giving me more boy-friend and bestiest with a great love for me.

Thanks for giving me my first, bassist, and my mood healer. So I know how it feels to be hurt, and I learn to heal the pain.

Thanks for giving me everything I need

Oh God, I couldn’t count your love for me. I couldn’t remember all of Your gift in my live

Dear God, I fully thanks to for giving me more love each day and also from people around me.

Please lead me still in Your way, so I’m not gonna fall down.

Please give me direction in Your way, so I’m not gonna be in the wrong way

Please give me a pure heart so I could help people.

Please hold my hand and teach me how to learn to the rope to catch my dreams

Because, I’m nothing without you by my side.

awful heart

my mood today : B.A.D

I don't know why but it feel like my heart is about to explode!
oh gee, I feel nothing but an awful mod.
I hope somebody could heal my mood ASAP
please, I need my mood healer effin crazy...

Quotes

"if I could rearrange the alphabets, I gonna put U and I together side by side"

when your eyes speaking

"truth from your eyes"

It was the day when I woke up late to school and my eyes was so SLANTED that day.

Okay, obey the fact that my eyes are already slanted.

No, I’m not Chinese, I’m totally bataknese.

And I don’t know how come I have such this slanted eyes.

Back then. I say hello to my chair mate without any expression at once, because I was so sleepy that day.

You know what she said? She said, “ly, are you mad at me? Am I doing something wrong to you? Why your eyes seems so hate me?”

Oh my Goddess, what’s going on with my eyes and the way I look people?

Am I looking like wanna bite you darlaaa? LOL-ing

Other day, I had a meeting with my friends and juniors. I said nothing because I tried to be a good listener. But you know what my juniors said to me? “Ka ully, your eyes seems like so sharp. The way you look at us, is like a lion seeking for a prey”

WHAT? Oh my dear juniors, I don’t know what’s going on with my eyes…

I wish I could change this eyes.

Oh ya! Remembered about Heart-breaker-boy, he ever said something about my eyes.

He said, I look so attractive because of my eyes. OH MY GOD, it’s like hearing the light strike in the rain! I don’t know it’s just a “lips service” or a true fact- I do astonishing.

Well, actually I’m a friendly person, humble, love to mingle with people and it’s really poles apart with the entire stereotype that people once judge me.

WHAT-SO-EVER people talking about my eyes, I and “the looking for prey eyes” are inseparable. Yes that’s me.

My uncle is a photographer, and his best object is people eyes. You know why?

He said, “Idle hands can became the tool of the devil, the mouth can utter lies, lips sometimes hide a poisoned kiss and the body can ache from extra weight and years but the eyes will always tell the truth”

Yes, your eyes are the most honest part of your body.

You can’t hide your sad eyes after cry. You can’t cover your smize eyes when you hate someone. You can’t emphasize your dynamic happy eyes when you’re in love.

Well, one last word from me honey…

If you want to find someone lie or no, look them in their eyes.

Because, eyes will always tell you the truth.

honeylovebabe signout,

bonita xoxo

other dimension between friends and lovers

"which one do you prefer? friends or lovers?"

Heya folks! How are you dude? *high five*

Me? Hmm, so-so. I had such a hard time at school with those task and teacher. But still, I love school (minus tasks and teachers) LOL-ing.

Yeps, school weeks has back and it takes my time a LOT. My head so full and I do STRESS.

Anyway, talking about school I remember my school mates which I miss them effin crazy during the final exam holiday. We’re making such a good time together by sharing our problem and off course LOVE LIFE!

Well, love life is also a part of teenager life isn’t it? LOL-ing

First, we’re talking about Ms. N love life which is going not really well.

Actually she’s a good girl and also her boy. BUT, both of them are emotional person. In brief they’re actually love each other, they care for each other and THEY STICK WITH EACH OTHER-whether Ms. N said that she hate her boy sometimes, she still stick with him.

Then, my other friend sharing about her love life. In this case, we had the same problem. We’re in love with someone who is already with other girl. And however I try to forget the pain and feeling it still hard to erase the pain.

We’re still in contact with that boy and we’re a good friend rite now. One thing for sure, we’re tried to hide and obey that feeling rigorously.

So then, my friend asks me a question,

“ulbon, which one do you prefer, between boyfriend and bestiest?”

Then I replied, “darlaa, it such hard problem to choose between boyfriend and bestiest. But in my opinion a good boyfriend is someone who could be you bestiest, and a good bestiest is someone who could be your boyfriend.”

I don’t know why I decide to say those words, but I just think that whoever you choose between boyfriend or bestiest you’ll still need them both.

And the only way to solve that problem is to make both BESTIEST AND BOYFRIEND in one packet. That’s it. End of conversation.

What do you think?

Yeah, that’s just my opinion. If you had any opinion, go ahead share it with me dear *smile*

But then, we found another problem.

HOW, IT COMES IF WE’RE IN LOVE WITH OUR FRIEND?

Here they go my amateur-solving-problem:

“Friend is friend. Love is love. Even you can’t live without both of them. You have to choose one, darling. But one thing you have to remember, friends can be lovers but lover can’t be friends. A lovers who being your friends, they seems promising at once but after a time pass by the just fade away.”

Somewhere between friends and love there is other dimension named spouse. Yes, if you are dare to choose your spouse in next 10-15 years later, you definitely have both FRIEND AND LOVERS-2 in1- in one person.

So? Which one do you prefer? Friends? Or lovers? You decide honey! I believe you can choose one of them perfectly!

Live your love life honey, cheers and warm hugs from me to you!

honeylovebabe signout,

bonita

Not Okay

"HEART-BREAKER-BOY"

Okay, before I go too far. I bring you some best offer.

Much more better if you go away and try to read something else in my blog.

Because, what you’re gonna read in the next paragraph is just my madness and sorrow.

Ah shit, I WANT TO SPIT ON HIS FACE!

(breath in- breath out)

well, you still wanna read? Ah whatever

Yesterday, I’m totally mad! I do totally speechless! Oh God damn, how could I believe in such a kind of PLAYBOY? Oh gee, I’m stupid, so stupid, too naïve, too immature and once again I’m too dumb!

How do I depend and respect in him? Okay, I know he’s not my boyfriend. But, he act like, so care to me! Act like a guardian angle, but actually he’s nothing but a SHIT! Ah bullshit with all of your sweet words, bullshit of things that you do for me. This time, you tear me up again. Gee, I want to cry. Aaaaaaaaaaaa….

How many times you got me in this situation? More than 3^rd times dude!

I do wanna hate you, I do wanna punch you, I do wanna spit right in your face!

But, I can’t because you’re nobody to me. You’re just my friend.

Ah dear, he talk to somebody else and totally ignore me! He doesn’t ask me, about how I get home, about my condition! And it’s because you already with other?

I don’t need you to take me home-because my brother is pick me up. I don’t need you to hold my hand or something-because we’re friend rite?

Heloooo, if you’re truly my friend instead of ever-being-crush with me, at least you call my name and asking my condition!

Did you? oh ya, I know that you’re too busy because you’re trying to make her smile and laugh anytime as much as possible! You’re too busy to send messages to her, in fact she’s just 1 meter far from you. What a shit!

Just prepared if you read my blog dear my FRENEMIES and my ever-being-crush, I do wanna vomit in front off your face. I’m sick of wasting time of thinking about you! I’m sick of being tired! And I’m sick about the SWEET CARENESS you’ve done! Call me too serious, but who cares? I don’t care about you anymore!

GO away, and get far from my face. Thanks and bye.

once again, dear my heat-breaker-boy if you're about to find a new prey do it when you don't have any relationship status with other girl, or do it with ONLY ONE GIRL! don't you dare to make other girl feel so special.

best offered you repent ASAP.

honeylovebabe signout,

Bonita

MOOD KILLER INSTEAD OF MOOD HEALER

“Some people are passionate about science, some about fashion, others about art, and others about making your mood drowning into the deep sea of madness ”

Hay Folks! How your mood today? Is it good or bad?

I’m in a good mood rite now. But I don’t know why, I just remember the day that I had such a BAD mood.

Well, just in case you need my tips LOL-ing

I was about searching something in front of my computer and looking for something that I need. Then my cell-phone was rigging. It was my old friend calling. He had something to tell me about one event, and he want to join him too.

I said that I had something to do on that day. Much more better if he asked me weeks ago.

Then you know what’s going on? He was mad at me. He said that I’m selfish! He said that I can’t understand his feeling. It’s like, oh my God what are you talking about? Is that a sin that I couldn’t accompany you? WTF

Other day, a friend of mine calls me B-I-T-C-H at my back. You know why? Because she thought that I chase her boyfriend. Oh damn, it’s like hellooooo… who are you and who your boyfriend is? Fyi, I’ve been a good friend with her boyfriend. Her boyfriend is my best buddy since junior high school, and I know him before he was in-relationship with her! I couldn’t help but realize that I’m in the boiling point!

No, I’m not finish yet. The other day when I had English mid test, my friend was asking me some answer (cheating). And then I told him my answer, but then I said that I’m not really sure about my answer. Much more better if he asked others too (the more answer, the more option). Minutes later, he poked my back and said, “ly, I thought the answer is not B but D” then I replied, “I told you that I don’t know. I was unsure about my answer. Ask others to make your self sure”

Then you know what he was said? He said, “I thought that you’re smart, I thought you’re good in this. You already pass the final test at LIA, so why you couldn’t answer this one?”

I WAS SO MAD AT THAT TIME! Hey, what’s happened if I already graduated at LIA? Is that really matter with my answer? I told you that I was unsure! Oh gee, Rrrgh… he thinks that he’s the big boss who can snap his stapler in anyone face? Call me immature, but I do wanna bite you dude!

Okay, if you ever in this kind of situation I’m sure that you must be in a very bad mood all day long. Me too darling!

So what should I do?

Well, some says to calm down, keep your head above the water and don’t show up your emotion. Some says to act as cool as possible. But if you were I, could you do those things? Oh, don’t be so naive I know that you want to spit on their face sincerely

But roll down your sleeves darling; because you’re just too respectable to punch this kind of mood killer!

First tips from me, calm down and take a deep breath. Breath in-breath out. Inhale-exhale. Make your self comfort than try to make friend with this mood killer. I mean, don’t punch them darling LOL. Patience is the key. This way will make you as the peacemaker and put you on the top of the game.

Then if they still burn you up, you have to take the next step. Be prepared darling, because you’re gonna have some kind of unspeakable war. What’s that? It’s a kind of war, in which way you just have to speak to them as long as needed. Make them realize that they need you. Make them realize that you’re mad at them.

So, here they go the last step!! If they keep killing your mood, one thing for sure you have to IGNORE THEM! What-so-ever they did to you; what-so-ever they say about you, you just have to ignore them!

In brief, don’t be aggressive. Instead of being angry back, just pity them. Use your power of confidence to ignore them, and try my second tips- use the unspeakable war trick! Once you could look unmistakably powerful and patience you’re the winner dear.

So, remember to calm down and don’t throw around accusation. Surely you can stand up for your self.

I waste 56 minutes

"I waste 56 minutes today, by crying under my blanket"

11.00 am
I turn off my cell phone.
I need someone to depend.
I know this is just too late, I know the time past
I know, it's just too late. that is my regret.


11.15 am
I open my window, the wind blow my mind
the sky so blue, with humid weather.
I need blanket, it's cool in here

11.30 am
okay, now I'm alone here. doing nothing but shit
I'm sick of being tired..
I'm sick of this situation
I need fresh air, I need something amusing

11.35 am
I'm crying under my blanket

11.56 am
I'm thinking --> am I to exaggerating?
I do ? oh gee, what-so-ever..
I'm crying just for a while, then I smile and everything gonna be okay

Cheer up my self and handle this day!!

The art of differences

"Are we an innocent adolescent or simply addicted to sweet illusion of the world?"

Maybe I’m a kind of melancholic person, or some kind of a girl who loves to shares my heart to other, at least to a close friend. A friend of mine said that I’m a “drama queen” girl.

Okay fyi, I’m not a drama queen. I'm just a kind of person who can’t keep my problem by my self, and I need somebody to help me out or give me some suggestion,even sometimes it’s a bad suggestion and I wouldn’t do it.

But still, whatever I said about my self, my friend still said that I’m a kind of a drama queen or something. Once again, no I’m not! Is that a huge mistake to tell somebody about your problem? Is that a sin that your best buddy know about things that made you cry? You decide dude…

Girls will be girls and boys still boys. Girl usually thinks with their heart, in the other hand Boys thinks logically.

When boys said something extra sweet just like the sweetest peach in the lime tea, girls believe it-and when girls said that they believe in, they really mean it.

In other hand, boys will simply fall in lust just if they saw a pretty creature with mini skirt and white transparent shirt- for those boys who read this; you have to confess that you ever did this before. Lol-ing

Yes, girls will simply fall in love when they find out a charm boys with extraordinary way of listening and giving them advice. But boys will simply fall in lust (or also love?) when they find out girls with extraordinary way of make up, with the endorse of mini dress or something.

In this case, I just want to say that girls sometimes make a holy-sin by thrusting their ears, and boys sometimes get into trouble by only thrusting their eyes when seeing sweet creatures, like sexy girls or something.

From my explanation above, I just want to say that everybody has weaknesses. Maybe my kind of melancholic stuff is my weakness. But I’m sure all you, yes you! The cosmopolitan person, you have your own weakness.

Yes, weaknesses are also a kind of differences. Naturally, while our country is struggling with urbanization problems, overpopulation, lack of jobs, sickening traffic jam, never-ending battle between politic party, terrible pollution and worse fashion, people and society likes to judge people by the differences they made and things they have done. But so what? In this world we’re living with differences. You and I, we’re totally different! But we live in rite? When the world still spinning, flower still blooming, and farmer still cultivate the harvest, people will always talking. There always be friend and foe, hated or love it.

Once again everybody is different, but as strange as it sound, some people often refuse it.

Are we an innocent adolescent or simply addicted to sweet illusion of the world?

Well, let’s people talks about what-so-ever they want. Let they think and gossiping about what-so-ever they need. Society is a place for us to stand up for our own differences. No need to worry about differences.

In brief, dare to be different to not a crime! Dare to speak what you want is your human rights! Coco channel once said, “To be irreplaceable one supposed to be different”. May we all be irreplaceable in our way of different.

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bonita <3